I and my home (like so many others I've heard) got smashed with respiratory illnesses. We got flus, then chest infections, then bronchitis, then worms (eeeeewwwwww I know!!!).
We each had one or more of these things over the last month and it knocked me on my arse. In this exhausted and 'weak' state, I found myself falling back into doubt.
Doubt about all the decisions I've made over the last year, questioning what my path is, whether I am pursuing and placing my energy into the right things.
This happens when your health is compromised because your body, as a way to protect itself falls back into its automated functioning - the paradigms and habits that we created over the last 20, 30 and 40 years. It tries to 'help' you by removing the need to exert any further energy in staying conscious and being present with the you that you have been working to unveil and bring forward. The you, that is still finding her feet and her place within your subconscious. There is less energy and effort needed to go back to old ways, and while this is NOT helpful your body is trying to help you conserve energy, rest and recover.
So in true feminine embodiment style I just let myself feel it all. The sadness, the pain, the regret, the disappointment, the fear, the failure, the loneliness, the exhaustion..... ALL OF IT. I noticed it, acknowledge it, gave myself grace and compassion, allowed myself to rest. Then when I had a little energy to bring my consciousness and passions back to the table, I was able to re-evaluate and consider it all.
From my life lens. Not comparing where I am with others. Not considering or wondering why I'm not 'there' yet. Recognising I have a young family. A mortgage. A husband and.... a need to be fulfilled.
So, I am pausing and pivoting...
I am putting all courses on hold, while I focus on my young family and studying a Masters in Counselling. I want to reach more women, have more influence and impact. I want serve at the highest and most expansive way possible. So.... I am going back to school to see where that takes me.
I am still going to be coaching 1:1 for individual sessions and my 12 week program. But they will be capped.
This offer will now be online and from a home office in Murrumba Downs. As I say goodbye to Soul Spectrum at North Lakes - for now....
So... if you've been thinking about doing some coaching now is the time. You don't want to miss out, with the limited spots available.
Pausing and pivoting..... holds some relief and excitement. So I know that is the right choice for now.